you see, everyone knows

that people smile.

and talk –

pleasantries, business, the weather, assignments, a joke and that comment.

The one that hits you after –

like tequila in the afternoon

a splitting headache once it sets in

It leaves you dazed, and numb,

but every nerve is on fire and

in your head

the doubt

the questions

the anger

and a burning desire to be defiant

to not be everything these smiling people say you are